Monday, July 19, 2010 • 7/19/2010 01:45:00 PM • 0 comments“ Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody?
You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy but at the
same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either, there isn’t a way to
explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want
anything in the world it would be to be alone. At least when you’re alone
no one constantly asks you what’s wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t
take “I don’t know” for an answer. You feel the way you do just because, you
hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself
again, but until then all you can do is wait. ”
“I try to talk to you, but I don’t know what to say. I am afraid you don’t
want me to say anything, so I don’t. But inside of me there are words waiting
to come out and tell you how I feel, like how I miss you. And how I love you
despite my broken heart and how I need you in my life. And especially how
much I want you. But those words may forever stay locked in my heart,
locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside yours
too, but I’ll never know.”
When love is no longer meant for me, When your heart is not for me, And when I'm not good for you, And when he makes you happy , I will leave though my heart is unwilling.
This heart that I've followed has left me so hollow. 'Without U' , I'm completely incomplete. Use everything you have, cause one day, you won’t have anything anymore. - Emma Petersen Of all the lies I’ve heard, "I Love You" was my favourite. if you can be yourself, why can't you let me be me? You can take another piece of me. Everyone else already has. Until there's nothing left. Until I disappear. If no one wants to look at you for what you really are, I will be here still. I wonder if you’d notice when I’m not around. I wonder if you’d miss me when I’m gone. “ But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy or a girl, maybe.. it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the un-returned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope. ” “When did we mess it up
What happened to love
We had it good
But it wasn’t enough
We shouldn’t let it fade all the way
We’re over thinkin this way too much
I want you next to me
But somethings gotta change Can we go back to the way we used to be
Back to the butterflies
Starin deep in your eyes
Can we go back to how we used to be
Cause livin and lovin was easy
We gotta find a way to fool reality
And go back to the way we used to be” “ It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it. ” “ The one thing I hate most is saying goodbye. It’s never been easy for me.
I mean, how do you approach the concept of goodbye? Goodbyes are all different.
Some are for a day. Some are for a month. But others are forever. And the
concept of forever is hard to accept. It’s like, hey, I’m never going to see
you again, goodbye. It doesn’t feel complete. But I think that’s what goodbyes
are. They’re incomplete and you honestly don’t know how long the goodbye will
last. It’s a part of life. A part of life I could do without. ” What is love?
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, and is your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't love, it's like.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't love, it's lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't love, it's pride.
Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't love, it's loneliness.
Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't love, it's loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't love, it's low confidence.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't love, it's pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't love, it's infatuation.
Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn't love, it's charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's love
Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurt?
Then it's love.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and hold you there?
Then it's love
Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's love.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Think about it for a second “ When it comes to relationships, people are always so scared of the what-ifs that they forget what is. They spend so much time thinking, “What if I get hurt?”, “What if it doesn’t work out?” that they stop
thinking about things that are already real. They forget the feelings
they get when the person they love walks into the room and the excitement
that rushes through them when the phone rings cause it might be the person
they are waiting to hear from. Never let the fear of what-if stop you from
letting yourself take a chance on love, because what if this is the person
your destined to spend the rest of your life with? ” “ We still speak, but the conversations are shorter. I speak hesitantly, in
fear that something will slip out like “I miss you” or “I miss this,” and I
will immediately regret the words I have spoken. Because if I say these things
I will realize I’m still not over you after all this time, and my heart will
once again be thrown out and about every time I see you. I don’t want to have
to go through that pain again, so I make like I’m over it. I cover it up and
live my life as though I am happy when the truth is, I’m not because you’re
not there anymore, standing next to me holding my hand and telling me
everything will be okay as long as we stick together. ” “Silence just keeps screaming back at me
The ones I love are lost in memories
And I wish that I could take back what was done
You can only change the person you’ve become
I have to try and find a way
To leave it all behind And if I fall and crash and burn
At least we both know that I tried
And as I crawl those lessons learned
Yeah they remind me I survived
And I’ve been hurt and I’ve been scarred
At least I know that I’m alive” The worst feeling isn't being lonely. It's knowing that you'll not be remembered by the person you'll never forget. I fantasize about not telling anyone & going to random place.. and I'd just disappear, and they'd never see me again... “ When you love someone, it will always stay there. I have to believe that
even though we go our separate ways, we still will be connected by this bond,
forever. I’m not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing, but I know it’s a
true thing. I know that no matter where you go or who it’s with, we will
always be connected. And when we look up at the stars, when we know it
was real, and it was why we’re who we are. ” When I tell you that I'll miss you, it doesn't mean I'll never get over you. It just means I wish I didn't have to. “ You gradually get over the pain.
It doesn’t go away, not for a long time, but it becomes
easier to live with. One morning you wake up, and she’s not the
first thing on your mind. And then a few months down the line, you
realize you’ve made it through half the day without thinking of her.
Sometimes it takes months, sometimes years, but eventually you reach a point
when you only think about them occasionally. You manage to do this because
you don’t see them, you don’t hear about them, and you try not to think about
them. And then you bump into them walking down the street, or someone
unexpected mentions their name and the memories come flooding back. But
memories also become less painful in time. ” “ It’s not that don’t I believe that everything happens for a reason. I just think some things are meant to be broken, imperfect, chaotic. It’s the universe’s way of providing contrast, you know? There have to be a few holes in the road. That’s how life is. If everything was smooth perfect, you’d get too used to that, you know? You have to have a little disorganization now and then. Otherwise, you’ll never really enjoy it when things go right. ” Am I loud and clear or am I breaking up? Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck? Are we getting closer or we just getting more lost? I'll show you mine if you show me yours first. Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse. Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words. I wonder if you wonder.. Oh I know your mind. The distance between you and I, getting farther and wider. We are no better than strangers.. “ It’s not that I miss you. I just, for some reason, keep thinking you’re going to walk through that door and tell me that you miss me and you want me and can’t imagine your life without me. I keep thinking you need me and you’re randomly going to call me, IM me, or text me. I keep waiting for the moment you’re going to man up and tell me all this, then I realize why you haven’t done it yet because none of it’s true. You’ve moved on now, and you’re happy. Without me. ” And I pray that you’re ok. That it’s okay. I pray all the parts of you that I remember are still there.
I pray that you’re happy even if it’s not with me.
“I’m sitting here all by myself
just tryin’ to think of something to do
Tryin’ to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it’s not working out
’cause you’re all that’s on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind Well I didn’t mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn’t mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn’t mean to love me back, but I know you did”
“ To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about it, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride, and its not about how you appear, and it’s not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat.
To let go is to cherish memories, to overcome and move on.
It is having an open mind in confidence for the future.
Letting go is learning, experiencing, and growing.
To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh,
made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up.
It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, to clear a path and let yourself free. ”
“If you’re going to love me, love me deeply. If you’re going to break my heart, then break it all. If you’re going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you’re going to stay, then stay forever and if you want to leave, then do it today. If you’re going to change, change for the better. And if you’re going to talk, please mean what you say.”
“ Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody?
You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy but at the
same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either, there isn’t a way to
explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want
anything in the world it would be to be alone. At least when you’re alone
no one constantly asks you what’s wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t
take “I don’t know” for an answer. You feel the way you do just because, you
hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself
again, but until then all you can do is wait. ”
“I try to talk to you, but I don’t know what to say. I am afraid you don’t
want me to say anything, so I don’t. But inside of me there are words waiting
to come out and tell you how I feel, like how I miss you. And how I love you
despite my broken heart and how I need you in my life. And especially how
much I want you. But those words may forever stay locked in my heart,
locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside yours
too, but I’ll never know.”
When love is no longer meant for me, When your heart is not for me, And when I'm not good for you, And when he makes you happy , I will leave though my heart is unwilling.
This heart that I've followed has left me so hollow. 'Without U' , I'm completely incomplete. Use everything you have, cause one day, you won’t have anything anymore. - Emma Petersen Of all the lies I’ve heard, "I Love You" was my favourite. if you can be yourself, why can't you let me be me? You can take another piece of me. Everyone else already has. Until there's nothing left. Until I disappear. If no one wants to look at you for what you really are, I will be here still. I wonder if you’d notice when I’m not around. I wonder if you’d miss me when I’m gone. “ But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy or a girl, maybe.. it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the un-returned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope. ” “When did we mess it up
What happened to love
We had it good
But it wasn’t enough
We shouldn’t let it fade all the way
We’re over thinkin this way too much
I want you next to me
But somethings gotta change Can we go back to the way we used to be
Back to the butterflies
Starin deep in your eyes
Can we go back to how we used to be
Cause livin and lovin was easy
We gotta find a way to fool reality
And go back to the way we used to be” “ It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it. ” “ The one thing I hate most is saying goodbye. It’s never been easy for me.
I mean, how do you approach the concept of goodbye? Goodbyes are all different.
Some are for a day. Some are for a month. But others are forever. And the
concept of forever is hard to accept. It’s like, hey, I’m never going to see
you again, goodbye. It doesn’t feel complete. But I think that’s what goodbyes
are. They’re incomplete and you honestly don’t know how long the goodbye will
last. It’s a part of life. A part of life I could do without. ” What is love?
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, and is your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't love, it's like.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't love, it's lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't love, it's pride.
Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't love, it's loneliness.
Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't love, it's loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't love, it's low confidence.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't love, it's pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't love, it's infatuation.
Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn't love, it's charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's love
Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurt?
Then it's love.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and hold you there?
Then it's love
Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's love.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Think about it for a second “ When it comes to relationships, people are always so scared of the what-ifs that they forget what is. They spend so much time thinking, “What if I get hurt?”, “What if it doesn’t work out?” that they stop
thinking about things that are already real. They forget the feelings
they get when the person they love walks into the room and the excitement
that rushes through them when the phone rings cause it might be the person
they are waiting to hear from. Never let the fear of what-if stop you from
letting yourself take a chance on love, because what if this is the person
your destined to spend the rest of your life with? ” “ We still speak, but the conversations are shorter. I speak hesitantly, in
fear that something will slip out like “I miss you” or “I miss this,” and I
will immediately regret the words I have spoken. Because if I say these things
I will realize I’m still not over you after all this time, and my heart will
once again be thrown out and about every time I see you. I don’t want to have
to go through that pain again, so I make like I’m over it. I cover it up and
live my life as though I am happy when the truth is, I’m not because you’re
not there anymore, standing next to me holding my hand and telling me
everything will be okay as long as we stick together. ” “Silence just keeps screaming back at me
The ones I love are lost in memories
And I wish that I could take back what was done
You can only change the person you’ve become
I have to try and find a way
To leave it all behind And if I fall and crash and burn
At least we both know that I tried
And as I crawl those lessons learned
Yeah they remind me I survived
And I’ve been hurt and I’ve been scarred
At least I know that I’m alive” The worst feeling isn't being lonely. It's knowing that you'll not be remembered by the person you'll never forget. I fantasize about not telling anyone & going to random place.. and I'd just disappear, and they'd never see me again... “ When you love someone, it will always stay there. I have to believe that
even though we go our separate ways, we still will be connected by this bond,
forever. I’m not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing, but I know it’s a
true thing. I know that no matter where you go or who it’s with, we will
always be connected. And when we look up at the stars, when we know it
was real, and it was why we’re who we are. ” When I tell you that I'll miss you, it doesn't mean I'll never get over you. It just means I wish I didn't have to. “ You gradually get over the pain.
It doesn’t go away, not for a long time, but it becomes
easier to live with. One morning you wake up, and she’s not the
first thing on your mind. And then a few months down the line, you
realize you’ve made it through half the day without thinking of her.
Sometimes it takes months, sometimes years, but eventually you reach a point
when you only think about them occasionally. You manage to do this because
you don’t see them, you don’t hear about them, and you try not to think about
them. And then you bump into them walking down the street, or someone
unexpected mentions their name and the memories come flooding back. But
memories also become less painful in time. ” “ It’s not that don’t I believe that everything happens for a reason. I just think some things are meant to be broken, imperfect, chaotic. It’s the universe’s way of providing contrast, you know? There have to be a few holes in the road. That’s how life is. If everything was smooth perfect, you’d get too used to that, you know? You have to have a little disorganization now and then. Otherwise, you’ll never really enjoy it when things go right. ” Am I loud and clear or am I breaking up? Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck? Are we getting closer or we just getting more lost? I'll show you mine if you show me yours first. Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse. Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words. I wonder if you wonder.. Oh I know your mind. The distance between you and I, getting farther and wider. We are no better than strangers.. “ It’s not that I miss you. I just, for some reason, keep thinking you’re going to walk through that door and tell me that you miss me and you want me and can’t imagine your life without me. I keep thinking you need me and you’re randomly going to call me, IM me, or text me. I keep waiting for the moment you’re going to man up and tell me all this, then I realize why you haven’t done it yet because none of it’s true. You’ve moved on now, and you’re happy. Without me. ” And I pray that you’re ok. That it’s okay. I pray all the parts of you that I remember are still there.
I pray that you’re happy even if it’s not with me.
“I’m sitting here all by myself
just tryin’ to think of something to do
Tryin’ to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it’s not working out
’cause you’re all that’s on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind Well I didn’t mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn’t mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn’t mean to love me back, but I know you did”
“ To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about it, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride, and its not about how you appear, and it’s not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat.
To let go is to cherish memories, to overcome and move on.
It is having an open mind in confidence for the future.
Letting go is learning, experiencing, and growing.
To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh,
made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up.
It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, to clear a path and let yourself free. ”
“If you’re going to love me, love me deeply. If you’re going to break my heart, then break it all. If you’re going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you’re going to stay, then stay forever and if you want to leave, then do it today. If you’re going to change, change for the better. And if you’re going to talk, please mean what you say.”
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